peace out, '09

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before? being able to drink at restaurantsss

2. Did you keep your New year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i dont even think i had one last year & i yes i have one for next year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? yup

4. Did anyone close to you die? seems like it just happened

5. What countries did you visit? america...?

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? stop eating so much junk, be happier, STOP WORRYING and ACCEPT that things have forever changed & i can't do anything about it

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory and why? so many. not one in particular, but the ones that stand out are the ones where i learned who has my back FOR REAL.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? nuthin really

9. What was your biggest failure? letting myself get upset about what people think of me, even though iknow it's not true

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? always

11. What was the best thing you bought? hmmm. idk. new camera? lots of cute accesories. GYM MEMBERSHIP.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my real friends =]

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? you want them to get called out on facebook? don't tempt me, survey.

14. Where did most of your money go? bills. cell phone. car ins. health ins. groceries. yayyy for being an adult.

15. What did you really, really, really get excited about? turning 21 & it's been lame as hell

16. What song will always remind you of 2009? party in the usa. ha.

17. Compared to this time last year are you:
Happier? no
Thinner? slightly
Richer? lol barely. but yes i ahve a better paying job now.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?partied. dated. laughed. spent more time with those i love the most <3

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? cried. worried.

20. How did you spend Christmas? with the family and depressed. cant deal with the holidays anymore.

21. How will you be spending New years? nye? asleep. nyd? clubbing!

22. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn? well, i woke up, got hugs from my grandparents, cried cuz it was my first bday w/o my mommy, went to work, got home and realized it was too cold to wear my new bday dress. wore an ugly outfit. dinner at bdubbs with some cool peeps. jessy & derek came from state to surprise me & jessy bought me my first drink there! afterward, went to meijer to buy liquor just cuz i could. paid. dropped it as soon as the cashier put it in my hand. watched the bottle shatter and the alcohol spill all over. got a free replacement. got home. went to bed.

23. Anything you want to do this year? alotalotalotalotalot

24. What was your favorite TV program? hannah, mt.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? i dont hate anyone. strongly dislike? absolutely.

26. What was the best book you read? havent read a book ffor pleasure since i was 12.

27. What was your biggest musical discovery? fell in love with lady gaga

28. What did you want and got? nobody really gives a shit as to what i want, so nothing really, tbh. just a couple things from a very small amount of thoughtful people in my life.

29. What did you want and not get? too much to name

30. What was your favorite film of this year? idk? this is it, maybe?

31. Did your behavior change over the year? yep

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2009? started off bad, didnt give a damn. got better and better. now i usually put effort into my appearance... usually.

33. Who was the best new person you met? haha, quite a few cool peeps. only really truly poured out my heart to one person, *shout out to Emilee McCoy, text me sometime! haha*

31. What will you remember about 2009? it was a rollercoaster. stuff from 2008 came back to haunt me.

32. Any predictions for this year? PRAYING it's the lovely year that i thought 08 was gonna be

33. Was 2009 a good year? eh. cant complain too much i guess.


Congrats Kevin Jonas!

Kevin Jonas got married this weekend, to his gf of 2 years, Danielle Deleasa.

congrats guys =]

it warms my heart to see that there are still guys out there with MORALS and that actually want to get married. no more purity ring for the older Jonas Bro. haha. but in all seriousness, i wish them the best. i love weddings <3


RIP Brittany Murphy

so young. so sad.

be careful y'all.

this has been THE WORST year for celebrities, my goodness!

may she rest in peace.

i didn't believe it when i saw it, but i'm sad to say it's official. my favorite movie by her was "Uptown Girls", i LOVED that movie! it made me cry everytime, lol. she always seemed to perky & cute.

my prayers are with her family, especially her mom who apparently found her.


How do you guys make your money?

i'm seriously confused. a lot of the ladies i follow are college students but you guys seem to have hella money for non-stop mac purchases, lol. i have a job, i work about 35 hours a week, and i'm making decent money but i never seem to have any money the last couple days before i get my next cheek. so i just suck at life? or do you guys have some sort of side hustle to fuel your makeup addictions? cuz i need one. i do my own extensions (sew in) and i'm thinking about doing that on the side, but i tried to practice on my cousin and it was so pretty but she took it down seriously 3 days later and she wouldn't let me style it right when i did it so i got pissed and let her finish it herself.

anyway, i'm rambling. how the hell do you guys make money?!



More garbage from Spencer Pratt.

this has got to be one of the worst album covers i've ever seen. a toddler could've done a better job with a pic of him and about 7 minutes on picnik.


when will Speidi stop the madness?


i think i'm gonna start taking weekly pics of my progress from hitting the gym. just looking at myself, i feel like i weigh exactly the same, but i look at myself everyday & i think the perspective would be a lot different if i saw weekly pics of myself. good idea? bad idea? what i fall off and get even fatter? lol. then i'll just be depressed.

eh, i think i'll do it. it'll be fun.


i NEED lighted makeup mirror! HELP!

can someone tell me a good brand? i got a conair one and it's TERRIBLE and way too small.

and iw ant something affordable too.

suggestions, please!

he just wanted to do hoodrat stuff with his friends.

this video never gets any less hilarious.

Loreal BOGO (half off) at CVS until the 19th!

guess what i'm getting?!

some eyeshadow duos!

any suggestions on which ones to get?


serious ass question.

What is with Jermanine Jackson's hair?!?!

it is paint?! EXPLAIN!


lady gaga does mac

lady gaga & cindi lauper's new mac ad! no offense to Cindy Lauper, but she hasn't had a song in like 25 years, lol. Not saying she's not talented, cuz "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun" is constantly in my playlists, but, yeah...

I kinda of wish Lady Gaga had her own ad.

anyway, they both look lovely =]


i be up in the gym, just working on my fitness

so, it's been just over a week since a joined the gym and, well, i hate working out! lol. i hate sweating and i hate how i feel when i'm done (EXHAUSTED!) i wanna be one of those people who LOVES working out but i don't think it's ever gonna happen for me, haha. however, in the long run, it's SO worth it. i just wanna be healthy and skinner =]. i could care less about being flat out skinny, i just wanna be thinner, healthier and more energetic.

i usually just do the bike for 20-30 mins and i do some weight training for another 10 or 15.

i'm gonna start taking pics so i can track how much smaller i'm getting by the week. i don't have a specific weight goal to meet, i just want to lose some. hell, i don't even know exactly how much i weigh. do i have an estimate? yes. do i care to share? hell no. ha.

anyone else on a weight loss journey?


holidays, schmolidays.

it's official.

i've become one of those people who DESPISES the holidays. and i can't believe that i', one of those people and that i'm admitting it, but it's time to stop being in denial. i hate feeling this way. I still believe Jesus is the reason for the season, but NOTHING is the same since my mom passed away. she was the most important person in my life, my best friend, my confidante; just my everything. i till can't believe she's
gone. Christmas used to be the best time ever. I was the only child so I go damn near whatever I wanted, which was lovely, but not the best part! I loved decorating the tree with her, putting up the lights, shopping for HER and making her feel special. but now... i don't look forward to it. I was a legal adult when she died, but I was NOT ready for it. I was away at school enjoying being a carefree student and then, BAM, she's gone and all that's over. I MISS HER. i miss my old life. I miss talking to her. i miss her hugs and I just miss having a mother. I get to watch all my cousins and friends have TWO parents and I have none. It pisses me off, but I'm happy for them becuase I wouldn't want this for anyone else. not even my absolutele worst enemy. I wanna cry just thinking about it.


I just want my old life back! I feel like I have to worry about more shit than an average 21 year old and it's not even my fucking fault!



something for you headband loves out there


check out this link ladies! super cute headbands for decent prices. =]

drugstore makeup minihaul

as a lot of you probably know, i am a complete MAC whore. it's my favorite makeup brand and always will be, but i decided to check out some drugstore brands for a while. i had a few things before, but i almost never used them with the exception of mascara because MAC mascara makes my eyes BURN like no other. (anyone else have this problem?)

I've been wanting to try the Loreal HIP eyeshadows for a while and i finally did and i think i'm in love! I got the duo called Platinum. It's a super pigmented silver and a black. now, in the pics that silver showed up like that in one swipe, but the black, it took 3 swipes for me to get it that dark. i'm not too impressed with the black, but I got it mostly becasue I wanted a silver shadow. The silver is a metallic. Very, very shiny and the black is basically matte with few & far between silver glitter in there. I will definitely be wearing this a lot!

Also, i got the new Maybelline Line Stiletto liquid eyeliner and i'm not that impressed. it's super dark which i love, but it's really messy IMO and it's not available in waterproof! boo! It has a felt tip instead of the usual brush and the felt tip gives you a lot more control which I love.

The last thing I got: Maybelline Define a lash eyeliner. just kinda "eh" about this. plain black eyeliner. It came with a smudger on the end which is cool, and it glides on REALLY nice and smooth, but it's just your run of the mill eyeliner i guess.

I will DEFINITELY be getting more HIP eyeshadows! Do you ladies love them too? any suggestions for good colors?

Remember Whitney, the winner from ANTM cycle 10?

well, now she's modeling for Forever 21's Faith21 line!

yay, i really liked her =] and i see she's back to her brown hair!



computer's fixed!

i'll be blogginglater on tonight to let you guys know what's been up. if anyone cares, lol.

so happy to be back =]


my computer is totally busted, i'm sending this from my phone. no blogs for a while =[ leave me lots of love though!
xoxo <3 paige


today was a good day =]

guess what i did today?

got pierced. AGAIN! haha, i'm seriously addicted. this time i got an industrial. hurt like a bitch, but not NEARLY as much as my rook.

there's a google image pic, i was too lazy to take pics myself =]

and i can't wait for it to heal so i can put this gorgeousness in there:

yay for piercings!

and then, on my way home, i heard a contest on the radio anouncing the first 10 people to call, would get a free membership to a well known gym chain around here (it's called powerhouse). and guess who won?!?!

yours truly. oh, yesss.

today was an awesome, awesome day.

and later, i'm going to the midnight viewing of "Brothers" with Jake Gylenhaal, Tobey McGuire (i can't believe how thin he got for this role! such a committed actor!), and Natalie Portman. it looks really good.

i hope you ladies are having a good day too

xoxo, paige


foundation application: brush or sponge?

my vote?

BRUSH.. hands down. i used the Sonia Kashuk #15. perfection <3

i do sometimes go over it with a sponge just to make sure things are even.

what do you ladies use?

have any secrets for perfect foundation application? i'd love to hear!

smoky look + nude lips.

it turned out so pretty, imo. the pics don't do it justice!

this look was super easy & inspired by this video:

but i had to subtitute, because i seriously have none of those colors! boo!

i used all MAC products unless noted.

the dark part, i used Beauty Marked. kind of between purple & black. super pretty up close though.
the neutral part: Cover Girl e/s quad in Country Woods. I used the last color in the set.
for the white: Sea Myth. I believe this was a limited edition collection because it comes in a seafoam green case instead of the typical black MAC packaging. I got it a few years back.
mascara: my HG, Cover Girl Lash Blast waterproof in very black

Sweet as Cocoa
then a little Ambering Rose on top
and then I used Trade Gold as a highlight (down the nose, across the forehead, TINY bit on cheeks"

Studio Tech Concealor in NC50 as a base
and lip glass in Chai

it was super quick & easy!


i have a virus.

fml. just in time for school to start & book-buying time.

and i know who put in on there & they won't fess up. see why i don't like people using my shit?

man i'm pissed...


oh, give thanks.

well, thanksgiving's technically over, but i still wanted to take the time out to blog about what i'm thankful for. i've had a rough couple years, but through it all, i've made it through because of the man upstairs. <3

next, my lovely friends. so many have been there to listen to me cry & whine and i really do appreciate it.

and my finals thanks thanks is to my family and family friends who have been amazing for the most part. ESPECIALLY my lovely grandparents who i'd do anything for. as long as i'm around, i promise they will never need anything and most of their wants will be taken care of because they deserve it! they have been the most supportive people i could ever ask for.

i'm also thankful for my health, my much improved state of mind, the fact that i have a job, a roof over my head, food in my greedy mouth, etc.

hope you all had a good holiday! =]


true life: i'm a telemarketer.


this is the most miserable job i've ever had. to start it off; some days i get off at 11. one day at midnight and one day at 3:45.

here's what goes down: you get there. pray you find a computer that actually works. found one? good. log in. pray someone left a phone at your station. no such luck? look around all fucking day for one. plug it in. completely static-y. perfection. take 20 mins to find another one that works. JACKPOT. the computer starts dialing numbers. let the yelling, cursing and "DON'T CALL HERE EVER AGAIN"'s begin. *sigh* just the start of a 7 hour shift.

we can legally call people from 8am to 9pm. and the national do not call list? psh. we're exempt. awesome.

seriously, i cannot wait to find a new job. i've come home and cried because of the way people talk to me. i mean, i know being solicited is annoying but just fucking hang up, there is no need to curse and stuff, ugh. we are PEOPLE too.

*rant over*


i'm still alive! plus mini haul!

omg, i've been so busy.

sorry i've been neglecting all you lovely ladies! this work schedule is CRAZYYYY and i'm looking for a new job too so it's been really crazy. on top of that, after much consideration and deciding that things were getting out of hand; i started grief counseling to deal with my mom's death. i only started 2 weeks ago but i feel SO DRAINED after, but it really does help just to talk about it.

anywho, i've been shopping!

got a few things at walmart:

finally got a lighted makeup mirror! i love it =]

and 2 really cute, super comfy bras and they were only $10 each! such a bargain.

also, who knew Hard Candy is now at walmart? i didn't! last i knew it was at sephora. but i got this really pretty baked blush called "Honeymoon" and it gives you the most gorgeous glow! love it <3

also, i've been obsessed with glamour mag lately. it's my new favorite!

then i went on a ring spree!

got one at Ashley Stewart and 2 at Avenue. I usually don't shop at plus size stores cuz i really don't like the stuff they, but most stores stop at a ring size 8 and i'm like a 9, so, yep.

aren't they super cute? the huge white one is actually stretchy. it's kind of uncomfy actually, but i'm willing to sacrifice for cuteness =]


shit my dad says

well, not MY dad, but this guy's dad. follow him on twitter: shitmydadsays


"How the fuck should I know if it's still good? Eat it. You get sick, it wasn't good. You people, you think I got microscopic fucking eyes."

"The dog is not bored, it's a fucking dog. It's not like he's waiting for me to give him a fucking rubix cube. He's a god damned dog."

"If mom calls, tell her I'm shitting... Son, marriage is about not having to lie about taking a shit."

"You're like a tornado of bullshit right now. We'll talk again after your bullshit dies out over someone else's house."

Hit Counter error


i lost like 3 thousand hits last night.


i'm sad.

top 10 worst texting habits

Unless you’re living a seriously alternative lifestyle, you’ve probably been communicating via text for a while now. You text your friends, your boyfriend(s) — even your parents. It’s quick, convenient, and usually makes your life a helluva lot more pleasant...except when you come face to face with the 10 worst texting offenses in the world. Check ’em out below, plus some advice on how to stop offenders in their tracks.

1. The Mass Text
It’s Friday night, you’re at home on the couch, and you get a text that goes something like this: “What are you getting into tonight?” You know for a fact that this very same text just went out to 20 other people at exactly the same time, and that the sender is just waiting to receive all his/her options before deciding what to do. So what if the only thing you have planned for the night is that lame-ass (but sooo good) Lifetime movie at 11? You refuse to hang out with someone unless they make specific plans to hang out with you. You know how you can block those newsletters that you never signed up for by sending an e-mail with “unsubscribe” in the body? We suggest doing the same thing in a reply-text.

2. The Texting Cult
There is always at least one point in the night — a lull in the conversation, a pause between thoughts — when it gets really quiet, and you look around and realize that all your friends are busy texting. One person pulls out her iPhone while everyone else is looking at the dinner bill, and then someone else starts doing it, and before you know it, you’re in the middle of the sacred circle of text. Resist the urge to choose some random person in your contacts to send a useless message to. Instead, pull out your phone and send a text to everyone at the table asking, “Should we order another drink?” It will make everyone laugh but also point out the silliness of the situation.

3. The Double Message
Of course you screen calls. Everyone does. Sometimes you’re in the middle of something and sometimes you just don’t feel like talking. But your phone is still working, and you see the missed call and the voice message alert. So why — why?! — do certain people feel the need to send a text letting you know that they just left a message? Don’t they realize that if someone is smart enough to read a text, they’re also capable of understanding what the little bobble head with the sound waves coming out of him symbolizes? Text back, “What’s next, a carrier pigeon?”

4. The Texting Tease
You’re seeing a really cute/smart/funny/cool new guy, and your heart skips a tiny beat every time you get a text from him. In the middle of the week, you get one asking what you’re up to this weekend. Assuming he wants to do something together, you let him know that it’s looking pretty relaxed so far. Does he then proceed to make a plan with you? No. He responds, “Oh okay, cool.” You stand there with a perplexed look on your face. Respond “Yeah, but call my secretary if you want to schedule something.” This way, the ball is in his court, but ultimately you’re the one who is in charge, thanks to your confident attitude.

5. The Bulk Texter
An example of what a series of texts from this person might look like:
Text 1: Hey!
Text 2: What’s up?
Text 3: What are you doing tonight?
Text 4: Some of us are going to Cool People Bar tonight.
Text 5: Around 10
Text 6: It’s gonna be me and Chris
Text 7: Are you coming?
Text 8: Let us know
Text 9: Byeee!
Text 10: lolz

An example of what that exchange should look like:
Text 1: Hey, Chris and I are going to Cool People Bar around 10 tonight. Let us know if you wanna come.

An example of what you could text back:
Text 1: Please
Text 2: never
Text 3: text
Text 4: me
Text 5: this
Text 6: way
Text 7: again.
(one-minute pause)
Text 8: For “realz.”

6. The Bored Texter
You’ve just finished a sufficiently long and entertaining texting exchange with someone, and now you’re ready to put your phone down for a little while. But your phone dings, and it’s another text from said person. It looks like this: “Soooo...” Or, “What upppp.” Or, “la la la...” Clearly, they have nothing else to say and just want something to do. Send a text saying, “Running, watching movies, reading books, baking.” Your buddy will get the point that some people actually have a life.

7. The Show-and-Teller
Love is wonderful. We’re huge advocates of love and being in love and enjoying that love. People gushing on and on about their amazing love life? Not so much. Not only do you have to listen to them tell every insignificant story about how cute it was that their boyfriends ate pancakes for dinner and woke up with a funny hairdo, but you also have to read all of their SUPER-cute texts. “Guys, look what he wrote to me! Omg look at what he said now! Haha aww, look at this one!!” The cure? A dose of their own medicine. “Hey, look what my Mom said about her gallbladder! Omg you won’t believe how I’m planning to organize my sock drawer! Aww, my dog is wagging his tail. Oh, he’s doing it again!!”

8. The Goobers-and-Popcorn Texter
The previews are over, you’ve been waiting to see this movie for weeks, and here you finally are, snacks in hand. But the guy in front of you insists on ruining your experience by texting for the entire 96 minutes. Here’s a little secret he doesn’t know: EVERYONE sees his phone lighting up. And hears it vibrating violently every two minutes. When the lights come up at the end of the flick, call up a friend and loudly discuss how rude the guy texting throughout the entire movie was. Then get ready to start running.

9. The Lingering K
This one is especially aggravating if you’re not on an unlimited texting plan. You get a message asking how your day went or if you’ll be free at a certain time, so you send back a detailed and informative reply. Your phone dings again. You open the message and it says...“k.” Do people not even have the decency to include the o? The offender doesn’t even need to reply to the message. But if they feel the need to, could they not at least drum up something a little more personal/creative/not totally unnecessary? Respond by letting them know how much, to the cent, they owe you for superfluous texts the next time you’re together. Then hold your palm out expectantly.

10. The Needs-to-Grow-a-Pair Texter
Guys should never, ever get comfortable with using text slang and abbreviations. Whether he’s a friend, date, or boyfriend, no girl wants to associate the men in their lives with tween-speak. The next time he sends you a “TTY L8ER” or “C U 2morrow,” tell him that he should really consider an iPhone, BlackBerry, Sidekick, or “anything that gives you more room to text.” He’ll realize how outdated his text-talk is.


internal bra?

here it is! as you can see, it's a little silicone implant under the muscle tissue & the straps are attatched to the fascia of your rib cage. apparently it's very minimally invasive and it won't need to be redone every few years like breast implants.

sounds interesting.


this is the strangest, yet most awesome music video i think i've ever seen

"bad romance"-by whomelse, but the [crazy] & very talented, lady gaga

Rihanna at the Glamour Mag 2009 Awards


congrats on the Woman of the Year award ♥


How cute is this?!

i need this in my life!

Katt Williams' mugshot

for real? you're a burglar now? and smh at that hair and the creeper smile.

just an all around fail.

yet another song ruined by a Youtuber.

help this child...

job interview tmrw!

noon, pray for me y'all!

this job i started a couple months ago is NOT working for me!


Quote of the day

"Ladies, let me give you some advice. You can throw all you stupid fucking chick-lit, self-help, why-doesn't-he-love-me books out, becuase this is all you need to know: Men will treat you the way you let them. There is no such thing as "deserving" respect; you get what you demand from people...If you demand respect, he will either respect you or he won't associate with you. It really is that simple." -Tucker Max

so, so true.

Russell & Katy

ahhh, i think they're so cute together! they're both so quirky, but they still seem like opposites; he's so raunchy & she's the preachers' daughter.

they're adorable & she's so gorgeous <3

i've had a crush on him for a while [i'm oddly attracted to his skinny jeans and accent]; she stole my man!

Sammy Sosa, what the heck?

this first pic was taking in MAY! it's Novemeber, only 6 months later.



woman passes driver's exam on the 950th attempt


this lady is 68 years old & has finally [and BARELY, she got the lowest score possible] passed her written driver's test. she has yet to take her road test.

some things just aren't meant to be sweetie! i don't think you need your license dear.

read the story here


will blog about it later <3

Paige, Paige, Mo Maige, Banana Fana, Fo Faige

Fee Fi, Mo Maige, Paiiiige.

haha, sorry i'm so obnoxious. I used to sing that song all the time with my mommy <3

and I was just sitting here thinking about how much i used to HATE MY NAME! ahhh, I seriously hated it 'til I was probably like 16. When I was 10 or 11 I actually started telling people my name was Ashley cuz I wanted a more "normal" name, lol. I was such a weirdo. But now that I think about it, I LOVE my name! It's different & it stands out. & I only know a few Paiges, but we are all awesome, if i say so myself.

My mom had always told me my name was picked out before my parents even got married. She heard it in the movie, "Jagged Edge" & fell in love. She also told me what it meant, and she told me it meant "servant" and I got a little alarmed cuz who the hell aspires to be a servant, and my mom looked at me and said "Paige, out of all the greatest people in the world, aren't they all serving someone?" and I didn't think of that until she said it, but it's so true! When I first heard servant, I thought of like a maid or something, but think about it: all the greatest people are helping others! Doctors, lawyers, presidents and my mom was one too! She devoted her entire life & career to helping the people of Detroit, especially the low income, be the best they can be!

Anyway, did any of you guys hate your name growing up? Or did you always love it?

Let me know! I love comments =]

Big things poppin'

just a little list of goals i want to accomplish in the VERY near future.

1. lose weight. i'm getting a gym membership soon, i feel so "blah" not that i've pretty much stopped working out. not to mention flabby, lol.

2. getting my braces back on! i had them when i was younger, didn't finish (long, stupid story that just pisses me off. i'd like to thank my dead beat father for this one) and now i'm worse off than before. they're not completely busted or anything, lol. but i need them back on.

3. get my real estate AND p & c insurance licenses. seriously, when the economy picks back up, this is gonna be a great career.

4. find the love of my life. i know this isn't gonna just happen right away, but that's really the only thing i've ever wanted for myself more than ANYTHING. all the money in the world means nothing if you don't have unconditional love behind you <3

boy oh boy, do i miss my mommy! so glad THIS happened!

so, about 3 months ago (July 10th), it was my mom's first b-day in heaven. I was actually holding up better than thought. of course i missed her, but i was fine. i had a lot of thoughts going through my head so i just went for a walk to clear my head. then i chilled out for a little bit. then i got ready for work. got there, did the usual. called people. answered the phones and took a couple payments from customers. so, this one guy comes in, and he always pays in exact change. i forget his exact total, but i remember the change was like, 24 cents. so, he gave me the cash and 24 cents in change, and i usually never really look, but something possessed me to look at the change, and i looked down, and my grandpa & i (mostly him, haha), collect coins, and a noticed one was what's called a "wheathead" penny. and they're old, they stopped making them in 1958 i think. so i just looked at it, and i flipped it over, curious to see what year it was from cuz i knew it was old, and it was from 1954! the year my mom was born! she knew i needed a sign or something from her. i had been feeling really down, and missing her so much. i haven't dreamed about her in forever and i guess she knew i needed that. i'm so glad she sent it to me. so i replaced it with one of my own pennies and gave it to my boss to take it to the bank & i kept the penny for myself.

it's just too coincidental to be an actual coincedence, or "co-een-kee-deenk" as my mom used to say, haha. [why do moms always have little sayings like that?]

just wanted to share. to anyone who's ever lost a loved one, friend, whatever, even if you're feeling lonely, just know they're always, ALWAYS looking over you, even if it doesn't feel like it. my mom was the closest person to me in the world and it still feels like a really, really bad dream. even as recently as the other day, i picked up the phone to call her and realized i couldn't! i just wish it would feel more real already, but what are ya' gonna do?

the end =]

p.s., idk if you can really see the pic, but it's the actual penny. i'm keeping it in my jewelry box. i think i might have it made into a charm for my charm bracelet. i'm gonna cherish that measly little 1 cent for the rest of my life. <3

10 random things about me:

1. i hate beans. and it's not the taste, it's the texture! i hate how they're all smooth on the outside and weird & powdery on the inside. yuck.
2. i believe in ghosts & aliens. i think i've encountered several ghosts and the alien thing; if there's life on earth, why can't their be life on other planets? yes, some are inhabitable to us humans, but don't you think other species could tolerate it? i'm no theorist or anything, lol. just sayin'...
3. i think i'm addicted to my weave/extensions/whatever you wanna call them. seriously, it all started the day before prom. i got them for the first time and i've been hooked since May 2006. i look so much better with long hair! i love it <3
4.i want a puppy so bad!
5. i want to live in Atlanta, it's so lame in MI!
6. i would LOVE to become a vegan. i just don't have the willpower.
7. i didn't start watching the Disney Channel 'til after I graduated HS. I'm obsessed now. I wish Miley was my bff <3
8. my faith isn't as strong as it used to be, but my morals are very strong these days. i think? lol. i really REALLY try and stay away from things i know i don't have any business doing. some people might call it being a baby or immature, or "high school", but i really think it makes me more mature to be able to say NO, then wind up with some consequences i'm not ready for.
9. i hate arguing. even if things build up in me, i'd rather have peace than a huge argument. unhealthy? yes. but i'm working on it.
10. no matter what, nail polish will not stay on my nails. it's so damn annoying! i've tried everything. so, now i wear acrylics, but what i've been doing recently is just putting a thin layer on my natural nails so the polish sticks. works like a charm!

Kim Z. from RHOA with no wig

seriously, she looks so much better without it! and she's got a ful head of gorgeous hair! why doesn't she just get extensions?

i'm confused. did anyone else see the episode when she said she was spending a few hundred bucks a DAY on wigs because she only wore them once? so silly and wasteful. i don't understand this lady.

and i'm not even gonna get started on the Big Papa thing... but doesn't that seem like a HORRIFIC example to set for her 2 tween daughters?


seriously, are they not the most gorgeous couple?

please get married <3

Katherine Heigl's babyyy <3

she & her hubby, Josh Kelley, adopted the baby from Korea in honor of her own adopted Korean sister.

so cute.

they look so happy!

congrats Katherine & Josh <3


buy me this. && how much do you think they cost?

fierce, huh? how much do you ladies think they cost?

let's play a little game =]

Kim K as Princess Jasmine


seriously, y'all are probably starting to think i'm a lesbian cuz i keep talking about this girl, but she is BEAUTIFUL. and her body is sick.

k, i'm done, lol. that Reggie is a lucky dude.

i'm done for real now.


Jon Gosselin on Halloween.

is anyone elses' flesh crawling?


forever 21.


from forever 21:
heart pendant
black slouchy beret (got the grey one last week)
brown huge sunglasses
paisley-ish wallet

bath & body works:
black raspberry lotion & body spray-i bought a bottle of this over the summer, but i lost it and never found it! i wore it today and this guy at work told me i smelled like strawberry shortcake, haha. (it doesn't smell like strawberry short cake, lol)
midnight pomegrante body spray-i've been wearing this scent off & on for a while. i've had a few lotions, but this is the first time i got the spray. i actually love to spray it in my hair!
vanilla bean holiday lotion

[**they had a sale! if you bought 1 of their signature scent items, you got one free. the total came to $25.44 and you got a coupon for a free item under $13 if you spent $25 or more! this is how i got the vanilla bean lotion. basically, i got 2 items for FREE!]

victoria's secret-5/$20 beauty rush products. i had to stock up! got my usual "i want candy" and "strawbery fizz" lip glosses, but this time i also got a pina colada scented one. i forgot the name of it, and i'm too lazy to go get it, lol. but it smells nice. and i also got thes lip balm thingies. one is papaya-kiwi & the other is banana berry. i'm not too impressed to be honest. eh, to each her own.

"This Is It"

saw it.
loved it.

MJ was a genius! the way he felt the music was amazing. he was dancing just as well as his 20-something background dancers. just a flat our talented man. it wasn't sad at all. they didn't eve mention the fact that he passed away, it was a complete celebration and kind of a closure for all of us who were curious.

words can't explain.

go see!


individual eyelashes.


i've been thinking about trying them. just on the outer corners though. hers turned out really pretty!

has anyone ever done it by themselves?

was it hard?

Rihanna's album art for new album, "Rated R"


love her. <3

i love this wavy look!


more epid Queen-ness. man i love Freddie Mercury <3



they have awesome music, absolutely timeless, you guys should download them!


Megan Fox waves

i wanna try this!

not with that space-ship looking "rod" thingy though. my plain ol' curling iron.

lately i've been doing my waves by just wrapping my hair around a 3/4" curling iron but i never thought of alternating with regular curls.

hers turned out so pretty, i HAVE to try this!

what's your ringtone? [COMMENT PLEASE! I'M CURIOUS!]

just a random question.

mine is currently "sweet dream" by beyonce & my text tone is the beep from "kimpossible". haha.

forever21 haul!

woohoo! my stuff finally got here!

i got a grey slouchy beret.
like4 pairs of super cute earrings.
&& 2 packs of hairbows. ;]

i wanna order some bracelets and another hat. and some necklaces.

damn online shopping makes it too easy to spend unnecessary money.


RIP Shiloh Pepin

poor little Shiloh was a 10 year old girl born with "Mermaid Syndrome"/ Basically, her legs were fused together and her entire uro-genital and some of her digestive system were abnormal due to this. I've seen her on tv a few times and she was so funny! i just wanted to give the poor baby a hug. They didn't think she'd even live to be a few days old because of all the health problems associated with her syndrome but she lived to 10, and unfortunately, something as relatively common as a cold is what killed her.

if you've never seen her on tv, here's a video of here. very inspirational. she was so positive in spite of it all!

RIP Shiloh.

p.s., i cannot believe some of the comments people had about her! smh...

remember the show Daria?

why don't they play this anymore?!? it was like, the best show on MTV! i miss her. =[

random smells i live & probably shouldn't love

1. acrylic liquid
3. gasoline
4. white out
5. super alcoholic hairspray

do you guys have any weird scents that you love?

zebra striped phone cases!

ahhh, aren't they super cute! you get all 3 of these for less than $12 on amazon.

it's for my env touch.

can't wait 'til they get here. ;]

i plan on using the pink & black one mostly.


Why can't forever21 just extend their sizes?

Yes, yes i know they have faith21 now which is great, but the selection is SEVERELY lacking in comparison to Forever21. They have the cutest stuff but they only go up to a large, which is like, a size 10/11 i believe.

seriously, why don't think just make all their clothes bigger and follow in the footsteps of Old Navy and other clothing stores that make EVERYTHING in bigger sizes. I'm not saying they should go up to a size 56 or some crap, but there's a huge market for plus sizes up to a certain point. i am in the process of losing weight cuz i wanna be healthy [and slimmer] lol, but i wanna look cute too!

Here's the item that made me want to rant: [lol]

i'd seriously love to have this shirt! boo!

and i'd also love to have everything else on this page: http://www.forever21.com/category.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=top_dressy&page=all&pgCount=25

With this ring, I thee wed.

...or do i?

seriously, how awesome is this ring? if you can't tell what it is, it's a pig flying. i think it's meant to be worn on your wedding ring finger and you're telling everyone that you'll get married when pigs fly.

ha. cute.

i want!


just wanted to share this site with you guys.

they have some REALLY, really cute stuff!

can't wait to order a few things. =]

i have a bag & a couple necklaces i have my eyes on.

they have some BAD shoes too! and everything's super cheap!

again, it's. www.urbanoriginal.com

Why Wedding Rings go on hte 4th finger.

is Foxxy Brown still deaf?

anybody remember that little incident or whatever the hell happened when she just suddenly went deaf? haven't heard anything about it lately. doesn't seem like it'd just come back... eh, idk.

anyone else remember this?

Introducing baby Sparrow!

so precious.

i think they're the cutest family. and look at Harlow, she looks just like her mommy!
awww. <3

dating a guy with a child.

i've been meaning to blog about this for a while now. about a month, actually and it all started one stupid day at work. it's a long story, but i had to sit in a different section at work than i usually do and i ended up next to this guy and we really, REALLY hit it off. we flirted all day and texted all that night, then a couple days later he tells me we need to stop cuz he has a girlfriend of over a year. perfect. why do i bother liking anyone? anyway, that's beside the point. he mentioned a couple hours after knowing me that he had a 3 year old son, and that kinda made me step back. now, don't get me wrong, kids are an absolute blessing and i can't wait to have my own some day and i know that there are PLENTY of people my age with children, but i'm just not ready yet, and i feel like when you're dating someone with a child--you're almost like a step-parent and i sure as hell ain't ready for that!

what do you guys think? i mean, it's awesome that he has a baby and that he supports him, and i really honestly don't know if i would have pursued it any further had it turned out he didn't have a g/f. i mean, as far as i'm concerned, i won't be ready to deal with any children until i'm done with school and married and playing step mom is a big responsibility. kids are great, but i'm just not at a point in my life where i feel like i can handle that.
have any of you guys been in a similar situation? what would you do?

shoes... GIMME!

ignore the fools in the pic, just concentrate on her feet.

i need those in my life.


What the heck happened to Lindsay Lohan?!

omg! i used to love her. she was so bubbly & i loved all her movies, they were so cute. i feel bad for her. all the drama with her dad and fame must be getting to her. if i didn't know who this was, i'd think this was a picture of a 35 year old tanning addict. but this is Lindsay, and she's only 23! smh... I hope you get it together dear. You have a lot of potential.



Marge Simpson in "Playboy"

and here's her model stat sheet.

idk how i feel about this. i mean, yes, it's clever. but i still find it kind of weird. and there's a pic [that i didn't post] of her in a very sheer negligee and you can CLEARLY see her nipples.