peace out, '09

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before? being able to drink at restaurantsss

2. Did you keep your New year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i dont even think i had one last year & i yes i have one for next year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? yup

4. Did anyone close to you die? seems like it just happened

5. What countries did you visit? america...?

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? stop eating so much junk, be happier, STOP WORRYING and ACCEPT that things have forever changed & i can't do anything about it

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory and why? so many. not one in particular, but the ones that stand out are the ones where i learned who has my back FOR REAL.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? nuthin really

9. What was your biggest failure? letting myself get upset about what people think of me, even though iknow it's not true

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? always

11. What was the best thing you bought? hmmm. idk. new camera? lots of cute accesories. GYM MEMBERSHIP.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my real friends =]

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? you want them to get called out on facebook? don't tempt me, survey.

14. Where did most of your money go? bills. cell phone. car ins. health ins. groceries. yayyy for being an adult.

15. What did you really, really, really get excited about? turning 21 & it's been lame as hell

16. What song will always remind you of 2009? party in the usa. ha.

17. Compared to this time last year are you:
Happier? no
Thinner? slightly
Richer? lol barely. but yes i ahve a better paying job now.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?partied. dated. laughed. spent more time with those i love the most <3

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? cried. worried.

20. How did you spend Christmas? with the family and depressed. cant deal with the holidays anymore.

21. How will you be spending New years? nye? asleep. nyd? clubbing!

22. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn? well, i woke up, got hugs from my grandparents, cried cuz it was my first bday w/o my mommy, went to work, got home and realized it was too cold to wear my new bday dress. wore an ugly outfit. dinner at bdubbs with some cool peeps. jessy & derek came from state to surprise me & jessy bought me my first drink there! afterward, went to meijer to buy liquor just cuz i could. paid. dropped it as soon as the cashier put it in my hand. watched the bottle shatter and the alcohol spill all over. got a free replacement. got home. went to bed.

23. Anything you want to do this year? alotalotalotalotalot

24. What was your favorite TV program? hannah, mt.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? i dont hate anyone. strongly dislike? absolutely.

26. What was the best book you read? havent read a book ffor pleasure since i was 12.

27. What was your biggest musical discovery? fell in love with lady gaga

28. What did you want and got? nobody really gives a shit as to what i want, so nothing really, tbh. just a couple things from a very small amount of thoughtful people in my life.

29. What did you want and not get? too much to name

30. What was your favorite film of this year? idk? this is it, maybe?

31. Did your behavior change over the year? yep

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2009? started off bad, didnt give a damn. got better and better. now i usually put effort into my appearance... usually.

33. Who was the best new person you met? haha, quite a few cool peeps. only really truly poured out my heart to one person, *shout out to Emilee McCoy, text me sometime! haha*

31. What will you remember about 2009? it was a rollercoaster. stuff from 2008 came back to haunt me.

32. Any predictions for this year? PRAYING it's the lovely year that i thought 08 was gonna be

33. Was 2009 a good year? eh. cant complain too much i guess.


Congrats Kevin Jonas!

Kevin Jonas got married this weekend, to his gf of 2 years, Danielle Deleasa.

congrats guys =]

it warms my heart to see that there are still guys out there with MORALS and that actually want to get married. no more purity ring for the older Jonas Bro. haha. but in all seriousness, i wish them the best. i love weddings <3


RIP Brittany Murphy

so young. so sad.

be careful y'all.

this has been THE WORST year for celebrities, my goodness!

may she rest in peace.

i didn't believe it when i saw it, but i'm sad to say it's official. my favorite movie by her was "Uptown Girls", i LOVED that movie! it made me cry everytime, lol. she always seemed to perky & cute.

my prayers are with her family, especially her mom who apparently found her.


How do you guys make your money?

i'm seriously confused. a lot of the ladies i follow are college students but you guys seem to have hella money for non-stop mac purchases, lol. i have a job, i work about 35 hours a week, and i'm making decent money but i never seem to have any money the last couple days before i get my next cheek. so i just suck at life? or do you guys have some sort of side hustle to fuel your makeup addictions? cuz i need one. i do my own extensions (sew in) and i'm thinking about doing that on the side, but i tried to practice on my cousin and it was so pretty but she took it down seriously 3 days later and she wouldn't let me style it right when i did it so i got pissed and let her finish it herself.

anyway, i'm rambling. how the hell do you guys make money?!



More garbage from Spencer Pratt.

this has got to be one of the worst album covers i've ever seen. a toddler could've done a better job with a pic of him and about 7 minutes on picnik.


when will Speidi stop the madness?


i think i'm gonna start taking weekly pics of my progress from hitting the gym. just looking at myself, i feel like i weigh exactly the same, but i look at myself everyday & i think the perspective would be a lot different if i saw weekly pics of myself. good idea? bad idea? what i fall off and get even fatter? lol. then i'll just be depressed.

eh, i think i'll do it. it'll be fun.


i NEED lighted makeup mirror! HELP!

can someone tell me a good brand? i got a conair one and it's TERRIBLE and way too small.

and iw ant something affordable too.

suggestions, please!

he just wanted to do hoodrat stuff with his friends.

this video never gets any less hilarious.

Loreal BOGO (half off) at CVS until the 19th!

guess what i'm getting?!

some eyeshadow duos!

any suggestions on which ones to get?


serious ass question.

What is with Jermanine Jackson's hair?!?!

it is paint?! EXPLAIN!


lady gaga does mac

lady gaga & cindi lauper's new mac ad! no offense to Cindy Lauper, but she hasn't had a song in like 25 years, lol. Not saying she's not talented, cuz "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun" is constantly in my playlists, but, yeah...

I kinda of wish Lady Gaga had her own ad.

anyway, they both look lovely =]


i be up in the gym, just working on my fitness

so, it's been just over a week since a joined the gym and, well, i hate working out! lol. i hate sweating and i hate how i feel when i'm done (EXHAUSTED!) i wanna be one of those people who LOVES working out but i don't think it's ever gonna happen for me, haha. however, in the long run, it's SO worth it. i just wanna be healthy and skinner =]. i could care less about being flat out skinny, i just wanna be thinner, healthier and more energetic.

i usually just do the bike for 20-30 mins and i do some weight training for another 10 or 15.

i'm gonna start taking pics so i can track how much smaller i'm getting by the week. i don't have a specific weight goal to meet, i just want to lose some. hell, i don't even know exactly how much i weigh. do i have an estimate? yes. do i care to share? hell no. ha.

anyone else on a weight loss journey?


holidays, schmolidays.

it's official.

i've become one of those people who DESPISES the holidays. and i can't believe that i', one of those people and that i'm admitting it, but it's time to stop being in denial. i hate feeling this way. I still believe Jesus is the reason for the season, but NOTHING is the same since my mom passed away. she was the most important person in my life, my best friend, my confidante; just my everything. i till can't believe she's
gone. Christmas used to be the best time ever. I was the only child so I go damn near whatever I wanted, which was lovely, but not the best part! I loved decorating the tree with her, putting up the lights, shopping for HER and making her feel special. but now... i don't look forward to it. I was a legal adult when she died, but I was NOT ready for it. I was away at school enjoying being a carefree student and then, BAM, she's gone and all that's over. I MISS HER. i miss my old life. I miss talking to her. i miss her hugs and I just miss having a mother. I get to watch all my cousins and friends have TWO parents and I have none. It pisses me off, but I'm happy for them becuase I wouldn't want this for anyone else. not even my absolutele worst enemy. I wanna cry just thinking about it.


I just want my old life back! I feel like I have to worry about more shit than an average 21 year old and it's not even my fucking fault!



something for you headband loves out there


check out this link ladies! super cute headbands for decent prices. =]

drugstore makeup minihaul

as a lot of you probably know, i am a complete MAC whore. it's my favorite makeup brand and always will be, but i decided to check out some drugstore brands for a while. i had a few things before, but i almost never used them with the exception of mascara because MAC mascara makes my eyes BURN like no other. (anyone else have this problem?)

I've been wanting to try the Loreal HIP eyeshadows for a while and i finally did and i think i'm in love! I got the duo called Platinum. It's a super pigmented silver and a black. now, in the pics that silver showed up like that in one swipe, but the black, it took 3 swipes for me to get it that dark. i'm not too impressed with the black, but I got it mostly becasue I wanted a silver shadow. The silver is a metallic. Very, very shiny and the black is basically matte with few & far between silver glitter in there. I will definitely be wearing this a lot!

Also, i got the new Maybelline Line Stiletto liquid eyeliner and i'm not that impressed. it's super dark which i love, but it's really messy IMO and it's not available in waterproof! boo! It has a felt tip instead of the usual brush and the felt tip gives you a lot more control which I love.

The last thing I got: Maybelline Define a lash eyeliner. just kinda "eh" about this. plain black eyeliner. It came with a smudger on the end which is cool, and it glides on REALLY nice and smooth, but it's just your run of the mill eyeliner i guess.

I will DEFINITELY be getting more HIP eyeshadows! Do you ladies love them too? any suggestions for good colors?

Remember Whitney, the winner from ANTM cycle 10?

well, now she's modeling for Forever 21's Faith21 line!

yay, i really liked her =] and i see she's back to her brown hair!



computer's fixed!

i'll be blogginglater on tonight to let you guys know what's been up. if anyone cares, lol.

so happy to be back =]


my computer is totally busted, i'm sending this from my phone. no blogs for a while =[ leave me lots of love though!
xoxo <3 paige


today was a good day =]

guess what i did today?

got pierced. AGAIN! haha, i'm seriously addicted. this time i got an industrial. hurt like a bitch, but not NEARLY as much as my rook.

there's a google image pic, i was too lazy to take pics myself =]

and i can't wait for it to heal so i can put this gorgeousness in there:

yay for piercings!

and then, on my way home, i heard a contest on the radio anouncing the first 10 people to call, would get a free membership to a well known gym chain around here (it's called powerhouse). and guess who won?!?!

yours truly. oh, yesss.

today was an awesome, awesome day.

and later, i'm going to the midnight viewing of "Brothers" with Jake Gylenhaal, Tobey McGuire (i can't believe how thin he got for this role! such a committed actor!), and Natalie Portman. it looks really good.

i hope you ladies are having a good day too

xoxo, paige


foundation application: brush or sponge?

my vote?

BRUSH.. hands down. i used the Sonia Kashuk #15. perfection <3

i do sometimes go over it with a sponge just to make sure things are even.

what do you ladies use?

have any secrets for perfect foundation application? i'd love to hear!

smoky look + nude lips.

it turned out so pretty, imo. the pics don't do it justice!

this look was super easy & inspired by this video:

but i had to subtitute, because i seriously have none of those colors! boo!

i used all MAC products unless noted.

the dark part, i used Beauty Marked. kind of between purple & black. super pretty up close though.
the neutral part: Cover Girl e/s quad in Country Woods. I used the last color in the set.
for the white: Sea Myth. I believe this was a limited edition collection because it comes in a seafoam green case instead of the typical black MAC packaging. I got it a few years back.
mascara: my HG, Cover Girl Lash Blast waterproof in very black

Sweet as Cocoa
then a little Ambering Rose on top
and then I used Trade Gold as a highlight (down the nose, across the forehead, TINY bit on cheeks"

Studio Tech Concealor in NC50 as a base
and lip glass in Chai

it was super quick & easy!


i have a virus.

fml. just in time for school to start & book-buying time.

and i know who put in on there & they won't fess up. see why i don't like people using my shit?

man i'm pissed...