true life: i'm a telemarketer.

ugh.

this is the most miserable job i've ever had. to start it off; some days i get off at 11. one day at midnight and one day at 3:45.

here's what goes down: you get there. pray you find a computer that actually works. found one? good. log in. pray someone left a phone at your station. no such luck? look around all fucking day for one. plug it in. completely static-y. perfection. take 20 mins to find another one that works. JACKPOT. the computer starts dialing numbers. let the yelling, cursing and "DON'T CALL HERE EVER AGAIN"'s begin. *sigh* just the start of a 7 hour shift.

we can legally call people from 8am to 9pm. and the national do not call list? psh. we're exempt. awesome.

seriously, i cannot wait to find a new job. i've come home and cried because of the way people talk to me. i mean, i know being solicited is annoying but just fucking hang up, there is no need to curse and stuff, ugh. we are PEOPLE too.

*rant over*

Quote of the day

"Ladies, let me give you some advice. You can throw all you stupid fucking chick-lit, self-help, why-doesn't-he-love-me books out, becuase this is all you need to know: Men will treat you the way you let them. There is no such thing as "deserving" respect; you get what you demand from people...If you demand respect, he will either respect you or he won't associate with you. It really is that simple." -Tucker Max



so, so true.

Paige, Paige, Mo Maige, Banana Fana, Fo Faige

Fee Fi, Mo Maige, Paiiiige.

haha, sorry i'm so obnoxious. I used to sing that song all the time with my mommy <3

and I was just sitting here thinking about how much i used to HATE MY NAME! ahhh, I seriously hated it 'til I was probably like 16. When I was 10 or 11 I actually started telling people my name was Ashley cuz I wanted a more "normal" name, lol. I was such a weirdo. But now that I think about it, I LOVE my name! It's different & it stands out. & I only know a few Paiges, but we are all awesome, if i say so myself.

My mom had always told me my name was picked out before my parents even got married. She heard it in the movie, "Jagged Edge" & fell in love. She also told me what it meant, and she told me it meant "servant" and I got a little alarmed cuz who the hell aspires to be a servant, and my mom looked at me and said "Paige, out of all the greatest people in the world, aren't they all serving someone?" and I didn't think of that until she said it, but it's so true! When I first heard servant, I thought of like a maid or something, but think about it: all the greatest people are helping others! Doctors, lawyers, presidents and my mom was one too! She devoted her entire life & career to helping the people of Detroit, especially the low income, be the best they can be!

Anyway, did any of you guys hate your name growing up? Or did you always love it?

Let me know! I love comments =]

Big things poppin'

just a little list of goals i want to accomplish in the VERY near future.

1. lose weight. i'm getting a gym membership soon, i feel so "blah" not that i've pretty much stopped working out. not to mention flabby, lol.

2. getting my braces back on! i had them when i was younger, didn't finish (long, stupid story that just pisses me off. i'd like to thank my dead beat father for this one) and now i'm worse off than before. they're not completely busted or anything, lol. but i need them back on.

3. get my real estate AND p & c insurance licenses. seriously, when the economy picks back up, this is gonna be a great career.

4. find the love of my life. i know this isn't gonna just happen right away, but that's really the only thing i've ever wanted for myself more than ANYTHING. all the money in the world means nothing if you don't have unconditional love behind you <3

10 random things about me:

1. i hate beans. and it's not the taste, it's the texture! i hate how they're all smooth on the outside and weird & powdery on the inside. yuck.
2. i believe in ghosts & aliens. i think i've encountered several ghosts and the alien thing; if there's life on earth, why can't their be life on other planets? yes, some are inhabitable to us humans, but don't you think other species could tolerate it? i'm no theorist or anything, lol. just sayin'...
3. i think i'm addicted to my weave/extensions/whatever you wanna call them. seriously, it all started the day before prom. i got them for the first time and i've been hooked since May 2006. i look so much better with long hair! i love it <3
4.i want a puppy so bad!
5. i want to live in Atlanta, it's so lame in MI!
6. i would LOVE to become a vegan. i just don't have the willpower.
7. i didn't start watching the Disney Channel 'til after I graduated HS. I'm obsessed now. I wish Miley was my bff <3
8. my faith isn't as strong as it used to be, but my morals are very strong these days. i think? lol. i really REALLY try and stay away from things i know i don't have any business doing. some people might call it being a baby or immature, or "high school", but i really think it makes me more mature to be able to say NO, then wind up with some consequences i'm not ready for.
9. i hate arguing. even if things build up in me, i'd rather have peace than a huge argument. unhealthy? yes. but i'm working on it.
10. no matter what, nail polish will not stay on my nails. it's so damn annoying! i've tried everything. so, now i wear acrylics, but what i've been doing recently is just putting a thin layer on my natural nails so the polish sticks. works like a charm!

dating a guy with a child.

i've been meaning to blog about this for a while now. about a month, actually and it all started one stupid day at work. it's a long story, but i had to sit in a different section at work than i usually do and i ended up next to this guy and we really, REALLY hit it off. we flirted all day and texted all that night, then a couple days later he tells me we need to stop cuz he has a girlfriend of over a year. perfect. why do i bother liking anyone? anyway, that's beside the point. he mentioned a couple hours after knowing me that he had a 3 year old son, and that kinda made me step back. now, don't get me wrong, kids are an absolute blessing and i can't wait to have my own some day and i know that there are PLENTY of people my age with children, but i'm just not ready yet, and i feel like when you're dating someone with a child--you're almost like a step-parent and i sure as hell ain't ready for that!

what do you guys think? i mean, it's awesome that he has a baby and that he supports him, and i really honestly don't know if i would have pursued it any further had it turned out he didn't have a g/f. i mean, as far as i'm concerned, i won't be ready to deal with any children until i'm done with school and married and playing step mom is a big responsibility. kids are great, but i'm just not at a point in my life where i feel like i can handle that.
have any of you guys been in a similar situation? what would you do?

my pick for Postsecret post of the week <3

cohabitation.

what do you guys think of this? i'm sure some of you reading this are cohabitating. do you think it's good or bad? for the people who aren't; would you ever do it? why or why not?

personally, i find the notion completely non-romantic. some people find it very sweet when their significant other asks them to move in, but um, it just doesn't sound appealing. when you get married; isn't like half the fun the fact that you finally get to live together? and it almost seems like, inappropriate, for lack of a better word. everybody in your family is gonna know you're fucking! lol, idk, maybe i'm just a prude, but i just wouldn't want my family thinking of me like that until i got married. idk, maybe i'm just old fashioned...

eh, just some things. a buddy from HS is moving in with her BF tmrw & i'm happy for them, they seem very in love and like a great couple!


p.s. my eye's been twitching for like 3 days now and and it's driving me NUTS. AH!

RIP DJ AM

poor guy.

I'm not even gonna sit here & act like I was his biggest fan, but he always seemed really cool & laid back. I'd heard that he battled drug addiction & a huge weight problem before but he overcame them both. Then less than a year ago, him & Travis Barker survive a plane crash where everyone else but them died. Now it looks like he's overdosed on drugs. I'm not saying drugs are the way to deal with anything, but it really saddens me. Obviously the man had some deep-seated issues, and apparently a recent breakup put him over the edge. It's just all very, very sad. Can you imagine the horror he went through during that crash and the things he saw? Ugh, i can't even imagine. You almost can't lame him for having a relapse. People keep saying "he had a second chance at life and he threw at away for drugs!". What the heck? How can anyone be so judgmental of a dead person? That's always bugged the crap out of me. Anyone who can openly mock a dead person is an ass, flat out. Let the poor man rest. I hope he finds peace now.

Christian + Atheist = hot mess?

I know religion isn't a topic commonly discussed on most of the blogs I read, but I'd been wanting to blog about this for a while. I, like most of you probably are (statistically speaking), am a Christian. I wouldn't consider myself to be a "super-Christian", but a Christian non-the-less. I think I lead a pretty conservative life, but I'd definitely consider myself a liberal because I believe people should have the legal right to do whatever they, within reason. I see no problem with being gay, pre-marital sex, etc. I'm kind of rambling, but do you think a devout Christian could date and or marry an atheist and it would actually work? In my world, religion is really important. I don't talk about it 24/7 because i don't believe in pushing my beliefs on other people, but how could one be in a relationship who feels the exact opposite of something that's SO important to you?

Personally, I don't think I could deal with it. What about you girls? Have you ever dated someone with opposite beliefs or known someone who did?

cosmetology school, i'm on my way!

well, sort of.

i've been wanting to go for yeeeeeears, but it never worked out. i always wanted to go, but i just kind of accepted that i never would, that it was just a hobby.

but, over the past year, i realized i can do ANYTHING i put my mind to. and then i lost my job last week and the hours interfered with the schedule of the school i want to go to, so now i have nothing holding me back!

so, i'm gonna go on a tour of this particular school i want to go to. i know of 3 people i went to HS with that went there and they LOVED it and they're doing so well and after the finished, they're all pursuing bachelor's degrees which is my plan. if i go full time, i'll be done in 10 months which is great!

wish me luck guys, i really want this!

have any of YOU ever gone to cosmetology school?

Saying "thank you"

what ever happened to this?

why can't people say it anymore? this is probably my BIGGEST pet peeve. when i was little, even when someone did the smallest thing for me, my mom would always say "what do you say, Paige?" and i knew that meant it was time to say "thank you". when you're little, you don't really understand what it means i guess, but the older you get, the more you realize what it means. i just don't understand what happened to manners. i think saying thanks is one of the easiest and NICEST things you can do!

do you guys encounter people not saying thank you a lot? or is this just some more Detroit nonsense? (lol).

weave on the ground.

is this just happening here in detroit?

i see it all the time. a weave track laying on the damn ground. how does this happen?! do you literally become SO frustrated with your weave, that you feel compelled to rip it out whilst walking down the street & then leave it there? does it itch? was it falling out in the first place? i just get so confused when i see this.

can someone explain to me WHY this keeps happening?

just a question.

random thought: am i the only one who finds it completely hilarious when people named Chastity are CLEARLY not chaste?

she's with me always!

so, about a month ago (July 10th), it was my mom's first b-day in heaven. I was actually holding up better than thought. of course i missed her, but i was fine. i had a lot of thoughts going through my head so i just went for a walk to clear my head. then i chilled out for a little bit and on my way to the shower to get reay for work, *SOMEONE* took it upon themselves to yell at me. they shall remain nameless, but it was a relative, it was NOT one of my grandparents. it was just ridiculous. this person told me i had no initiative or motivation and i wasn't doing enough. i was in school 23 freaking hours a week and working 20 hours a week. leaving home at 7:30 am and getting home at 10:30 pm, and getting up at 6 the next day. yeah, i'm not doing enough. and dare i say it: i truly think grief is a full time job.it really is. it takes SO MUCH out of you. going to work is one thing, but going to school & trying to do well while dealing with that is just, ugh. i was totally fine til then, but after this person's little tyrade, i cried and cried for a good hour. normally it wouldn't bug me so much, but everything just got to me at that moment. but i got myself together for work. got there, did the usual. called people. answered the phones and took a couple payments from customers. so, this one guy comes in, and he always pays in exact change. i forget his exact total, but i remember the change was like, 24 cents. so, he gave me the cash and 24 cents in change, and i usually never really look, but something possessed me to look at the change, and i looked down, and my grandpa & i (mostly him, haha), collect coins, and a noticed one was what's called a "wheathead" penny. and they're old, they stopped making them in 1958 i think. so i just looked at it, and i flipped it over, curious to see what year it was from cuz i knew it was old, and it was from 1954! the year my mom was born! she knew i needed a sign or something from her. i had been feeling really down, and missing her so much. i haven't dreamed about her in forever and i guess she knew i needed that. i'm so glad she sent it to me. so i replaced it with one of my own pennies and gave it to my boss to take it to the bank & i kept the penny for myself.

it's just too coincidental to be an actual coincedence, or "co-een-kee-deenk" as my mom used to say, haha.

just wanted to share. to anyone who's ever lost a loved one, friend, whatever, even if you're feeling lonely, just know they're always, ALWAYS looking over you, even if it doesn't feel like it. my mom was the closest person to me in the world and it still feels like a really, really bad dream. even as recently as the other day, i picked up the phone to call her and realized i couldn't! i just wish it would feel more real already, but what are ya' gonna do?

the end =]


p.s., idk if you can really see the pic, but it's the actual penny. i'm keeping it in my jewelry box. i think i might have it made into a charm for my charm bracelet. i'm gonna cherish that measly little 1 cent for the rest of my life. <3

inspiration

&& now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity. ♥


'tis all.

Extensions: how long is TOO long?

i currently wear 14 inches, but i trim them, so it's actually shorter, plus i assume they don't count the inch or so that's wound up in the weft, so i've been thinking about going longer. like maybe 16 inches, maybe 18? but i don't wanna look like a video vixen, lol.

what length do you guys wear? i guess it varies a lot depending on your height; i'm 5'7", and the hair comes like mid-boob.

also what brand of hair do you guys use? i used Velvet Remi.

good stuff.

"Good Hair"--the movie & the reality

so, i was watching "Wendy Williams" [boy, half my posts are getting to be about this woman, lol, but i LOVE her show!] and she played the trailer for a Chris Rock documentary called "Good Hair". i believe it's supposed to be released nationwide on October and i cannot wait to see it. long story short; the movie is about how we as a race feel about our hair. personally, i don't think how you style your hair has ANYTHING to do with how you feel about your race. i straighten my hair to the dickens & i wear 14 inches of remi hair [love it!] and i'm completely proud to be black! i just think i look better with long hair & my hair won't get that long on it's own. and i like how manageable my hair is when it's straight. why do so many "natural" sisters feel the need to say that women who use chemicals, etc. are shunning their heritage? hair is hair. do what you want with it. if you wanna wear dreads, cool. if you want a long, ice blond weave down to your ankles, fine.

speaking of "good hair", what is GOOD HAIR to you? i've always heard this term, and everytime someone would say it around my mom she would say, "everything God made is good!" (she was SO WISE, i miss her so much), and it's true. why is some hair "GOOD" and others' "bad"? as most of us know, lots of Black people usually will say it's hair that's long, curly, no "kitchen", smooth on the edges, & very soft. the fact of the matter is, most of us don't have hair like that! if you're 100% black, it's probably jet black, coarse, kinky & your edges DO NOT lay down, lol. and there's nothing wrong with that! i wish we could learn to stop calling it "good" hair. hair is hair & everyone is beautiful.

new nickelodeon logo

i disapprove.

bring back the old nick!

i used to love this channel, am i the only one? Disney fucking SUCKED back in the day, but i love it now. Nick was my true love when i was a kid.

remember "Hey, Arnold!"? ahhh, i loved that show! oh, and "Doug".

oh, the precious memories...

10 Commandments of College

Student was searching for divine inspiration. Student walked high on the mountain of knowledge and came across God. Student asked God how to live as a college kid should. And God said unto him, follow these Ten Commandments and you shall be all a college kid is. And Student thanked God and it was good. And Student spread the Ten Commandments of College to all.

I - Thou Shalt Nap

And God gave unto Student a great gift - the gift of napping. God said unto him, you shall spend half your day napping. You shall nap in class, in your room, and in your friends' room. And God said, if you don't nap, you will not be able to stay up all night drinking. And Student said, nap I shall. And it was good.

II - Thou Shalt Get Sick All The Time

Now God said to Student, you must be sick all the time. Student asked, but why? And God said unto him, you shall share drinks, stay up too late, drink too much, and make out with people you don't know. Therefore, God said, you shall be sick all year round. But God said, blessed are the sick, for they have partied the hardest. And it was good.

III - Thou Shalt Write Witty Away Messages

Student asked, but God, how will I show everyone that I am funny? And God said unto him, thou shalt write witty away messages. God said to student, you shall never just say you are in the shower, you shall say you are getting wet and wild... in the shower. You shall never say you are at class, you shall say you are sleeping... in class. God said, if you do not write witty away messages, I shall smite you. Blessed are the funny, for they will get many girls to be their friends, but never hook up with any of them. And it was good. Mostly.

IV - Thou Shalt Wear A Hoodie

And then Student asked God, God, how do I look like a college kid? And God said unto Student, you must wear a hoodie, for you can wake up hungover, disheveled, and unshaven five minutes before class, pull on your hoodie, and no one will know the difference. And you shall never wash it either. Student asked what kind of hoodie it should be, and God said, you shall own one with your school's logo on it, and you shall also own many others of varying colors and creeds. And Student was pleased and God was pleased. And it was good.

V - Thou Shalt Shit A Lot

And Student asked of his bathroom habit, and God told him, Student, you shall eat at Food Service and you shall shit a lot. And it will not be a good shit, for it will be the shit of the devil. Your ass shall burn for hours. Your school shall put laxatives in the food and you shall feel their pain. Student wept, and God said unto him, Student, fear not the shit, for all your fellow students will be experiencing the same. And Student dried his eyes and thanked God, and God told him to use wet naps to ease the pain. And it was good. Mostly.

VI - Thou Shalt Eat EasyMac

Student asked God if there was any alternative to Food Service, and God said unto him, you shall eat a lot of EasyMac. It is easy to make and you shall not need milk or a stove. And student said microwaves were forbidden by the RA. And God said unto him, you shall hide the microwave under your bed with a towel on top. And Student asked, what if it is discovered? And God told him to stop being such a pussy. And it was good.

VII - Thou Shalt Hook Up

Student then asked of sex. And God said, Student, you shall hook up and be happy. You shall go home with random people every weekend and forget about them the next day. You shall see them at class and be awkward amongst their company. You shall exchange saliva at bars and parties and it will be good. And Student became gleeful and God told Student to wrap it up because He knows where she has been, but Student does not. And it was good.

VIII - Thou Shalt Join A Club And Never Go To Meetings

Student inquired as to what shall become of his spare time, and God reminded him that he should be napping. But Student said he wanted to do other things. So God said unto him, you shall join a club at the beginning of the semester, but never go to meetings. And Student asked why he should not go to meetings, and God told him, because the Glee Club is gay. And Student understood His wisdom. And it was good.

IX - Thou Shalt Wake Up Confused

God said unto Student, there will come many a day when you shall wake up in the bed of another and not know where you are. You will not remember what you did last night and you shall be confused. You will see that you have nipple rings and a tattoo now and are covered in Sharpie. And Student was disturbed by this, but God said, you shall tell great stories about it to your friends someday. And Student understood. And God took a sip of a beer. And it was good.

And God gave Student one final Commandment

X - Thou Shalt Gain Weight

And Student wished to hear the final commandment, but God said he would not like it. But Student insisted, so God said unto him, you shall gain weight. However, God said, you will not buy new clothes, so you will wear sweat pants a lot. God said, Student, you will watch a lot of TV and become fat to which Student wept profusely. But God comforted Student saying, you will still get ass even if you cannot tie your shoes anymore. Student felt better and God pointed to Student's chest, saying, those will soon be bitch tits. And it was good. Mostly.

This is the word of God. follow the Ten Commandments of College or you shall be smited!

Streeter Seidell
College Humor

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HA! i forgot about this! discovered it my freshman (i think?) year of college. i laughed so hard. makes me miss living on campus. those were the days! kind of thinking about going back, but idk... we shall see

(courtesy of collegehumor.com)